my pensieve

oh godd!!

2006-06-11T15:11:00.005-07:00

there i was
there i wasn't
i mean i died
with my eyes open wide
so that i could still see
everyone alive except me

i was being taken
somewhere beyond
higher than the stars
the place for czars
other side of the cosmos
where god lived

of my god!
i will meet god
there was mist all round
it was a spirtual hound
or is it mist?
looks like smoke
is someone on a dope?
then god appeared!
oh my god !it was like weird
he looked cool
he was smoking
i mean..i am not joking.
he even offered me
no thnaks god
i am good!

beautiful ladies here
and there
everywhere
godd! they must be fairies
looked like sweet berries
idiot! snap came the reply
these are my damsels
for my pleasure
take ur eyes of
not for your lesure!!

take it dear
as he held it near
humm holy water, god
no dear
just plane beer
oh god! i was aghast
it had to come out
it cudn't last
your earth there
is becoming a hell
a viscious well!
and u in heaven
enjoying earthly pleasure?
do u have a measure
of the problems we face!

dear child
dont be so wild
talk like a gentleman
after all i am god .damn!
but people are killing
and being killed
women are raped
populations are being wiped
how can u bee so naive?
enjoying these sluts!
are u nuts?
god finally had it
and i won't take it

do you know why you are here?
i no not course
just a word
there is no god
and i am no lord
it was my turn to play it
to play what?
it didn't hit
to play god
and now its your
lets see what u can do
each of us get a chance
to play god once
this is the way it happens
to play god once
this is the way it happens
lets see what difference
you can make
stop the killing !
stop the rape!

then i tasted power
luxury's shower
fuck the killing
fuck the rape
bring the damsels
lets go by the lake

if only had i known

2006-06-11T15:11:00.004-07:00

that moment ,that night
it was just a little fight
never knew it would happen
never knew it could dampen
she just blasted out
what could i do?
just felt it waznt true

as i stared into the night
her tiny figure far away
running away, from the fray
her face glowing
under the moon hovering
tears dripping down
running away from the town
did i know it then?
she wouldn't be here again
we wouldn't meet forever
if only i had known it
if only had i known..

lost love

2006-06-11T15:11:00.003-07:00

she was supposed to be my future
but at present
she has become my past
a dream,a long lost past

i never thought it wouldn't last

she was my most cherished desire
the one i had to acquire

though finally she became mine

but it had to happen in due time
who had seen the future?
(for i had only seen the feature)
she wasn't made for me
(or so she thought)
and so she fought
she and me weren't supposed to be we
it has now made me free,
made me independent
which is thrust upon me
the independence which i never wanted
for till now it never daunted
it is better to be a slave
when she would be my master
as now it has become an neverending crave

which would follow me upon my grave

give me a part of you....

2006-06-11T15:11:00.002-07:00

give me a smile
to remember
so may i live
my whole life
on it

give me a hug
to feel
the warmth of
your body on mine
the warmth of
eternal sunshine

give me a kiss
to cherish
the magical bliss
so i sense
your lips
eclipse
me,
from the rest of me

give me a night
to treasure
which can show me day
when there isn't
any light

give me a dream
to imagine
me and you
in every way
that i want to

give me a song
to adore
the music of which
has your beauty
in it
which can make
you and me
rhyme
like poetry

give me a part
of you
so i may
love you
be consumed
by you
be adorned
by you
be adored
by you
so that i may
have you
till there are
twinkling stars
in the night
till the
shining sun
gives me light
till the..
end of time

i fell in love with a !!!!

2006-06-11T15:11:00.001-07:00

her looks decieved me
she wasn't what she appeared to be
oh! she looked so stunning
for what i came running?
oh my god i fell in love with a witch

her eyes looked pure and deep
they had me in a sweep
her voice came as a hypnotic charm
from one which i cudn't disarm
oh my god i fell in a love with a witch

her voice tender and sweet
never thought she had so much heat
her tone fooled me
her attitude decieved me
oh my god i fell in love with a witch

she loved me night and day
everything looked beautiful until the fray
but then slowly but surely
she started sucking my blood
something which i always dread
oh my god i fell in with a witch

then we became man and wife
she took over my whole life
sucked the happiness out
whole world stood,
i cudnt even shout
she had bewitched me such
oh my god i fell in love with a witch

then she started sucking the wealth
godd i am not even that rich
when nothing was left she sucked my soul
made me hollow..left a big hole
finally i made her realise
showed her place to that bitch
oh my god !
i fell in love with a witch

why do you play games?

2006-06-11T15:11:00.000-07:00

it happened long long back
looks to me like yesterday...
her voice still echoes in my heart
her smell still refreshes my soul
her image is still imprinted on my mind
but dont know where she is or where to find…

like every other day..the night passes
and my lonely mind races...
i leave my home,in the darkest nox
try to search the endless night
for this is where i may find
I cant get her out of my mind
when i tread alone
on the boulevard of her memories
is she following me?
when i hear her footsteps
behind me
makes me turn around
nothing is what i found
I still can feel her sound
I can feel it in my soul
i try hard
on the lonesome boulevard
without luck,I cant find
oh!she's all over my mind
why do you play games?
why dont u show up
her laughter
echos thru the hills
as I pass them
her voice..
whispers thru the fields
as I cross them
her smile
reflects thru the lake
as I walk by it
everything looks fake
the mist falls over
makes a hazy pattern
and i run
towrds it,
her face smiles at me behind it
I sweat ,
get out of breadth
still cant get hold of her
the mist also play games
with me
i look here
and there
my mind tells me..
who r u fooling,
she is dead,she is nowhere…
my inside my heart I know
she is dead.
now she is everywhere

my first ever poem!?!

2006-06-11T14:46:00.001-07:00

what the hell!! love??

i was really in a lot of confusion
i had this big doubt
what the hell is this love all about?
is it just an illusion?
or it when you are in dillusion?
is it the final conclusion?

every seems to be talking about it
some of them really seem to be in it
few are even cursing it
other are trying to find it
while i am trying to define it

i tried searchin for the answer
suddenly when i was in all frustration
then i found out the solution
when i thought it waz all about infatuation
when u never reach the saturation
it is about that vibration
with a little bit of titilation
i was in for a little bit of surprise
when i found it was just a neurochemical reaction!

In the end...(it does matter!!)

2006-06-11T14:46:00.000-07:00

i sit tired and lonely
my life flashing thorugh my eyes
with lots going in my mind
i have to get my thought out
i try to relax as i unwind

lamp glowing in front of me
as i see moon shining bright
through the open window,
behind the banyan tree
i ponder over the deepness of mind
in the faint blinking light

thoughts of enchanted forests
and of endless oceans
thoughts of haunted castles
and of magical potions
my mind races everywhere
as i remove layer after layer

but i know not what to write
too many thoughts and too less time
as i ponder in this magical night
the pen won't move
the inks too dry
its now time for me to say good bye

the moon is gettin bigger
the lamp is flickering more
wind is blowing fast and furious
it starts is pushing away the door

light is shining into my eyes
still i cant see anything
papers are flying everywhere
sweet voices i can hear
i try to listen as they come near

i am rising through the air
i am flying to, i don't know where
i am not too sure but i dread
i think i am now dead